WHY I DON’T LIKE MAKING MY HAIR.

I spent a huge time of my life on low cut, and I’m very comfortable with it. The convenience and comfort of being on low cut is not something I’ll ever want to trade.

I grew up, and I had traits of a guy. I walked like a guy, behaved like a guy, sat down like a guy, loved being around guys, and some funny traits. But you know people now, they want to stifle out those things because I was a girl. I also had interest in football and basketball but voicing it out was something I didn’t want to do.

With time, people started calling me Tomboy. I was cool with the name. The truth is, I’m very comfortable being in my own skin, but it’s a NO NO from a lot of people.

If I was left the way I wanted to be, you definitely will not be able to differentiate if I’m a boy or girl. Besides, I am frontless and backless. You won’t sometimes notice that I’m a girl even with the skirt and trust me, I’m cool with it.

The idea of making my hair was not something that I wanted to do. I see the way ladies treat their hair and I just know that I might not be able to measure up. The time, effort, sacrifice, pain, and discomfort is on the high side. Another thing, I don’t have so much hair.

Making one hair for 8 hours, spending thousands of naira, the discomfort, lack of sleep, having to style the hair, and you will now loose the hair again. I don’t want to go through that process.

I want a comfortable lifestyle and the path I have chosen has afforded me that opportunity. I spend less than 20 minutes to cut my hair, pay far less, and I’m back to what I need to do. It saves my time and gives me a chance to focus on important things. Spending a ridiculous amount of time to make my hair is outrageous.

Overtime, people have told me that I’m ugly. It doesn’t matter really. I prefer to be ugly and still rock in what I want than to be beautiful and be suffering. And besides, what does ugliness mean to you?

I’m making my hair because I want to make some people happy and not because I want to do it. I’m fulfilling people’s desire for myself and not what I want.
I am very comfortable with my low cut, jeans, round neck, school bag, and sandals. Makeup, earrings and also those feminine stuffs doesn’t interest me. When I wear them, I get so uncomfortable, and I just drop them. I just love this simple dressing and style.

The issue of marriage is beginning to set in, seeing I’m not engaged and maybe guys doesn’t seem to interest me, maybe doing my hair will clear things off. It’s not going to.

I feel I’m not graced to be all that feminine. I love my simple lifestyle and if you cannot love me just the way I am, then don’t bother to do anything, just keep quiet.

I have not made my hair for over a month. The idea of sitting for hours, the discomfort and all scares me. I’m sincerely not prepared for all these and the truth is, I am tired.

The peace that comes with all that I am is overwhelming. Well, I have decided to make one hair that will last for a year and more. That will save me from the constant plaiting and losing.

A part of me is yearning to be myself and I wish everybody will leave me alone and let me just be.

Husband will come to those who are worried about me not seeing one due to my traits. He will come and perfectly understands that, Adefunke is who she is. He will not try to change me or make me do things I don’t want to do, he will allow me to express myself and just live life, and we will also raise our children to be just who they are and not to please anybody not even we their parents.

I had to write this because I needed to unburden my mind. Every day, I see myself and my scattered hair, deep down I know this is not me. There’s somebody else behind that girl that’s standing.

I want to be ME. If I had interest for all those things, you would have seen them. No matter how I hide it, it will still be visible.

Adefunke is a girl. I have not forgotten and I will never forget.

I am not expecting anybody to understand because the society has made things more difficult. At least writing this makes me feel better.

For now, I’m going to continue making the hair till everything is stable.

Everything is going to be fine.