WHO IS AFRAID TO LOSE ME?
I am a people person and I find joy having people around me, they come to my house, I go to their house, we hang out, do serious stuffs together, and just enjoy life but as I journeyed through life, I did not really enjoy this friendship thing.
My stay at home made things even worse, I was cut off from people. I was always indoor. It got bad that I didn’t have anybody to call, and somehow I learned how to stay on my own with or without anybody.
People did not stay despite efforts that I put in to make things work. It was painful, but it’s fine.
And now, the girl that loves people don’t seem to be interested anymore. I don’t care if you call, or you don’t, if you care or not, if you reach out or not. I just want everybody to be fine.
I was once bothered about those stuffs then, but now, I’m not. So, if you don’t call me for years, it doesn’t change anything. I believe people choose to attach importance to people they wish.
I am always very afraid to lose people, and over the years I’ve seen people treat me like nothing even people I call friends and one day I sat myself down to ask myself “who’s afraid to lose me?”
It was a hard question really, but I needed to ask myself.
Few days, I was imagining if all my friends sends me a message and say they don’t want to be friends with me again, what will I do?
A part of me was scared, but I just concluded that I was going to move on.
Staying alone and not being with anybody is something very easy to do now. So, if everybody chooses to turn their backs on me, then it’s fine.
Life moves on.
I still ask myself; WHO IS AFRAID TO LOSE ME?
